Selfless Love

She gave not a part of her heart, neither a part of herself;
But instead, her whole being and everything in between.
She laughs when he’s happy,
She cries a river when he’s sad…
She’s lonesome but it is hard to see—
Hiding all the pains and misery behind.
Trying so hard for him to love her,
Always wishing, always hoping, always begging and ardently praying…
But it seemed so hard for him to do so---
As her tears fall-
Her heart bleeds to death and so as her soul.
He does not care, he does not see,
Not even a little sympathy.
He never loved her,
But, she does not know how to stop loving him.
The pain is growing deeper---
As her heart pounds,
She can almost taste deceit that surrounds.
When she looks up and pray,
She asked for his happiness to ray,
And for his success and fulfillment.
She loves him as though she never gets hurt…
She loves him as if he loves him back.
She cried again,
He turned his back to her once more,
The tears almost drown her it falls as though it rains,
Still when he looked at her---
She smiled and embraced him with so much love.
She’ll die each day living without him,
She’ll cry for every second that he’s with somebody else,
She’ll break down and weep over and over again as she hope he will someday love him too…
But by no means at all she’ll forget to love him like the first time that she ever do.
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Nov. - Dec 2008

LET THE RAIN COME DOWN

LET THE RAIN COME DOWN AND WASH AWAY MY TEARS,
LET IT DROWN ALL MY FEARS…
LET MY HEART SINK,
THROUGH THEN MAYBE, I’LL BE ABLE TO THINK.
GOD, I’M SO HURT!
BUT, YOU JUST DOESN’T CARE,
MY MIND’S GONNA BURST—
AS MY HEART WILL TEAR…
GOT TO HOLD MY GRIP,
OR ELSE MY KIDS WILL ALSO RIFT---
SO HARD TO DECIDE,
WHAT WOULD BE BETTER FOR THEIR LIVES…
MAY GOD PLEASE HAVE MERCY,
GIVE ME COURAGE FOR ME TO SEE,
THE RIGHT PATH I SHALL TAKE,
AND LEND ME ENOUGH STRENGHT TO HOLD ONTO MY FAITH…

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In His Arms

Let God fill your heart with His goodness,
Let Him cleanse your soul and put your mind at rest.
Let Him hold your hand to guide and direct your path,
Let God enters into your life to lift all your burdens’ prop…
Cry out to Him and be His child—
Remain in His bosom and leave the worldly things behind.
In His arms you’ll find comfort,
Give everything up to His Holy hands---
Let your trouble be swept away by His Holiness and bring forth---
The joy and praises to His throne.
Try not to let yourself rule your life,
Repent sincerely from your heart;
For God has the best plans for you…
So, let Him be the captain of your ship and dedicate to Him all the things that you do.
Just because He is the only one who knows you so well.
He will prepare a peaceful place for you to dwell.

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In His Arms

Let God fill your heart with His goodness,
Let Him cleanse your soul and put your mind at rest.
Let Him hold your hand to guide and direct your path,
Let God enters into your life to lift all your burdens’ prop…
Cry out to Him and be His child—
Remain in His bosom and leave the worldly things behind.
In His arms you’ll find comfort,
Give everything up to His Holy hands---
Let your trouble be swept away by His Holiness and bring forth---
The joy and praises to His throne.
Try not to let yourself rule your life,
Repent sincerely from your heart;
For God has the best plans for you…
So, let Him be the captain of your ship and dedicate to Him all the things that you do.
Just because He is the only one who knows you so well.
He will prepare a peaceful place for you to dwell.

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Just Hoping

I HOPE SOMEHOW YOU COULD FEEL HOW MUCH WE LOVE YOU,
I HOPE IN SOME SIMPLE WAYS WE HAVE MADE YOU AWARE THAT WE DO NEED YOU.
I HOPE YOU’LL FIND A PLACE FOR US IN YOUR HEART,
I HOPE YOU’LL REALIZE THAT IN YOUR LIFE, WE’RE ALSO IMPORTANT.
I HOPE YOU’LL LEARN HOW TO CRY FOR
US---
WHEN TIME HAS COME FOR US TO PART WAYS…
I HOPE YOU COULD LEARN TO LOVE US AS MUCH AS WE LOVE YOU,
I HOPE IN GOD’S TIME YOU’LL HAVE THE COURAGE TO FIGHT FOR US AS WELL,
I HOPE GOD WILL LEAD YOUR WAY BACK TO OUR ARMS TOO.

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HAVE YOU LOOK UP IN THE SKY AT NIGHT?
HAVE YOU EVER NOTICE THE MOON AND THE STARS?
THEY'RE SO CLOSE---
AND YET SO FAR…
ALMOST EXACTLY THE SAME OF WHAT WE HAVE NOW,
I'VE BEEN TRYING SO HARD FOR YOU TO LOVE ME TOO---
ON THE CONTRARY, YOU'RE TRYING YOUR BEST TO PUSH ME AWAY.
MOMENTARILY, I'LL GET TIRED BUT, EVENTUALLY I PURSUE OF LOVING YOU.
AMUSINGLY, I DON'T KNOW WHY AM I BEING SO NUMB OR DUMB?
SHOULD I KEEPS ON HOPING OR SHOULD I JUST LET YOU GO?
BUT, THERE'S NO PLACE FOR ME TO GO TO,
NO PLACE FOR ME, THAT I WOULD BE HAPPY---
NO OTHER PLACE BUT WITH YOU.
FOR SO MANY YEARS I HAVE BEEN WHOLE HEARTEDLY BEGGING GOD,
TO MAKE YOU LOVE ME…
I HAVE BEEN WANTING IT SO BADLY,
AND SO, I HAVE FORGOTTEN TO SAVE SOME FOR ME…
YOU'RE ALL THE THINGS I THOUGHT I KNEW,
YOU'RE EVERYTHING I 'VE EVER WANTED.
I'VE BEEN THINKING WHAT DID I DO TO YOU?
I WAS LEFT ALONE AND SO WRECKED.
SADLY, I HAVE TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT YOU'D NEVER LOVED ME,
AND BE USED OF THE PAIN THAT YOU'LL NEVER DO LOVE ME TOO…
WHERE SHOULD I START MOVING ON, MY EYES ARE FILLED WITH TEARS--- I CAN'T SEE,
THE WORST OF ALL THESE--- I'M SO DOOMED TO UNCEASINGLY LOVE YOU…

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Half Forgotten Dream

I never knew it’s much too painful,
I was so elated at a moment;
A moment I never thought so dreadful…

So strange– words seemed really true,
Or am I just wishing it to be true.
Somehow, it made no sense, but I believed it too.

Willfully, I once told myself,
I would not let anybody to hurt me—
So ironic, I fell– so hard and knelt
Still pain strikes through my heart.

Lingering---
Wondering what had happened.
I once dreamed of someone to love me,
Someone I love that much-
To dragged me and wished this life to end.

I’m loosing my sanity—
I almost forgot the feeling of being happy.
Being so blessed of the fortuity to love thee.

Going back where I started,
Just looking at you from afar,
Loving you so dearly from a distance…

Wishing and fervently praying---
For you to look at me and see my being,
Just a glimpse that can make my heart sing.

I thought it’s that easy,
To love someone who don’t love me---
I thought it is enough,
To just give my heart and soul to thee…

That much pain I have in me,
Have I forgotten to see---
The thought of at least I had the chance;
Chance to made you feel this so much love.

Will I keep on?
Certainly, God knows I would, in sublime;
Beyond these words can convey,
This love stands firmly, time after time.

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