Half Forgotten Dream

I never knew it’s much too painful,
I was so elated at a moment;
A moment I never thought so dreadful…

So strange– words seemed really true,
Or am I just wishing it to be true.
Somehow, it made no sense, but I believed it too.

Willfully, I once told myself,
I would not let anybody to hurt me—
So ironic, I fell– so hard and knelt
Still pain strikes through my heart.

Lingering---
Wondering what had happened.
I once dreamed of someone to love me,
Someone I love that much-
To dragged me and wished this life to end.

I’m loosing my sanity—
I almost forgot the feeling of being happy.
Being so blessed of the fortuity to love thee.

Going back where I started,
Just looking at you from afar,
Loving you so dearly from a distance…

Wishing and fervently praying---
For you to look at me and see my being,
Just a glimpse that can make my heart sing.

I thought it’s that easy,
To love someone who don’t love me---
I thought it is enough,
To just give my heart and soul to thee…

That much pain I have in me,
Have I forgotten to see---
The thought of at least I had the chance;
Chance to made you feel this so much love.

Will I keep on?
Certainly, God knows I would, in sublime;
Beyond these words can convey,
This love stands firmly, time after time.

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